I think that a lot of people who question my decisions must wonder how my life will look like further ahead. This is despite the fact that personally, I'm content.
I met with my gyno recently (not in the office) and we as we talked, he told me I should speak with older women to understand how life is lived (of course it stemmed from baby talk - yawn).
Imagine listening to an older woman who has done nothing but endure and who lives on the promise of “heaven” about how to live life. Older women are not the people I want to be listening to if I'm being honest. I realised after the fact that he is Catholic so it was also probably coming from that socialisation and I then completely let all the nonsense he said slide although I am 83% sure I will be changing my gynecologist. I truly do not have the time.
Speaking of children, this TikTok really gave words to many things I think/feel so please check it out.
One of the comments from this video spoke of something that I have been wondering about:
If you have read me, you know I believe that social media is THE performance. And I am often wondering about the drive (or need??) to make announcements about things that are happening in our lives. Some people falsely believe it is a show of vulnerability, sharing every minutiae of their lives with strangers on the internet but even a basic scroll on any Brené Brown writing will tell you this isn’t the case.
“You share with people who've earned the right to hear your story.”
Brené Brown - The Power of Vulnerability: Teachings of Authenticity, Connection, and Courage
Back in the day, I uploaded albums on Facebook after weekends out (I am talking mid to late 2000s) and if you would ask me why, I would likely tell you that it is because it is what we did. I am not sure much thought went into it - we weren’t trying to curate our existence I don't think. We posted all manner of photos, even those which by today’s standards would be considered imperfect. We basically went out with digital cameras, took pictures and uploaded all of them to share with our friends.
Even when I was no longer on Facebook, I was on other mediums posting random announcements - could I even travel without letting the masses know? I don’t think so. My birthday or anniversary wouldn't pass by without a post. But why? Why that urge to do it?
I don't have an answer but I do know that I do not want to be making announcements online and then that's how my friends and family find out.
Finally, Virgo season is upon us - act accordingly.